It's not daydreaming. I am just pondering

And I just lay down like everything is okay. As usual, I will keep on dreaming and you will blow my mind out of the fantasy that I'm riding on. Bring me to real, let the mind be the recorder to deal. I keep on listening but I can't hear. You stick with lecture, lecturing the life that I should bravely, proudly stand on. Actually...I am not giving up, I just need time to fly further before things get harder. So that one day when I wake up, there will be those days that I have dealt with.. Suddenly I'm awake.. And everything is just the same as last night. 

Afraid of

The more I know you, the more I'm afraid of our commitment. The more I think about it, the far the gap I tend  to put it in. Then, I decided to just follow the flow hope there will be nothing to regret for. Slowly I will forget, you may fly high the kite but one thing, you can't ignore the windy spell. 

The Situation

You know you are not clever,
You know you got nothing to be proud of,
You know you gonna face a zillion problems if you proceed,
You know you have only little people to rely on,
You know you are all weak, since the beginning.

There's no any other route,
There's no any other hope,
there's no any other sun,
there's no any other sketch.

You fall you face,
You fail you brave.

Just another situation to bear with.
just another situation to test with.

Stay there sayang. Just stay.

A reminder.

Read my friend's blog, and the words like slapped me. Thus, I made this for my own reminder. 

Thanks, you know who you are..  

The beginning..

hush the past,
boost the the present,
congratulate the future..

Insyallah everything goes well..

Satu persoalan sering terlukis di benak fikiran,

pernah bertanya apa dewasanya nanti..

mungkin guru yang mengajar ilmu kira-kira, kerana ilmu itu paling menguji aku 

ilmu itu juga paling menyenangkan aku.

mungkin juga seorang seniwati negara, melakar atas kanvas putih, ukiran, pemandangan, kelembutan, mungkin itu lebih dijiwai.

mungkin juga cuma seorang ibu yang berwawasan, didiki darah daging dengan hanya segulung ijazah, seorang ibu, isteri dan anak yang setia.

mungkin juga cuma seorang yang tidak punya apa-apa kerna ilmu bukan mainanku, ilmu bukan keinginanku mahupun minatku.

fikiran melayang, jenuh memanggil pulang..

kemari sayang..

masa sudah singkat,

sudahi yang sekian.

akhiri yang dipenantian..

kau hanya orang biasa, tidak punya apa-apa.

tumpukan pada yang wajib,

luahkan pada yang khayal.

Moga segala usaha diberkati, 

langsung panjatkan doa pada yang-Esa.

moga segala usaha dimudahi.

The memories